Conviction/The Announcement

Bruised Hands

Dreams of my Wife

Man Vs. Shadow

I walk and he follows
always behind
creeping or speeding at the same pace as me...
I wonder who he is but he doesn't speak or say or word
and he must be afraid of the dark because he rarely come out at night...
he follows
mimicking my every move but never saying a word, something like one of those annoying mimes you see at the mall
But one day I decide I'm sick of it and decide to fight this dark figure
yes I fought my shadow!
so there we stood in the middle of an epic battle:
man vs shadow
shadow vs man...
but if my shadow is truly just an extension of me then it is
man vs self
self vs man...
so I wrestled myself
because I was mad at myself,
for following me
for imitating me
for not being a leader...
why couldn't my shadow be his own man?
why did he constantly have to be behind my back or by my side?
I felt like him following me was putting too much pressure on I
and because I don't want to be followed or imitated I wrestled my shadow
deep inside I want to be left alone to my own vices
I want to screw up and know that the consequences and repercussions effect nobody but me
not my shadow,
he didn't do anything,
he is innocent,
he shouldn't pay for my mistakes...
shadow I'm sorry,
I'm sorry for messing up,
for making the wrong choices,
for knowing you were following and not making better decisions
for not being a better example...
then my shadow spoke to me and said
"YOU CAN'T CHOOSE WHO FOLLOWS YOU, YOU CAN ONLY CHOOSE THE PATHS YOU TAKE..."
well after being freaked out cuz my shadow spoke to me I realized he was right,
my every move effects my shadow whether I like it or not,
so now I walk upright down the narrow path
because I know my shadow deserves better...